Sore!

I AM SO SORE! Yesterday, I had a workout with a personal trainer from Extreme Fitness. He pushed me to limits and beyond and now I can barely walk! From head to toe I'm in so much pain!! "No pain, no gain?" I see what they mean!!! OW!

Break Up

Zoran and Tijana broke up today apparently. I can't believe this! They had three good years and yet now it's all over. I don't know all the details yet, but I'm sure it can't be good. What happened? First Luna's break up and now this! I hope he's okay.

"School Friend"

So it's Thanksgiving Day and I spent most of it with Luna. We went out for lunch and I went to her house afterwards. During this time, however, I got into a little bit of an argument with Emm.

Still a bit upset over how at times I feel that she tends to forget about me despite all we've been through, we got to talking about that subject again through text messages. Then she said something that totally threw me off. She said that we were "just school friends." I couldn't believe what she just said. Honestly, after all I've done for her. After all she's done for me. She doesn't even consider me a "good friend" or "best friend?" That ruined my day and I guess the argument ruined hers as well.

I offered to not speak to her again until the end of the year because we obviously have our differences, but she refused that, saying that the idea's so stupid and there's no point to it. Still, I can't let go what she said. She tried to change it around after by saying "good school friend," but she can't go back on the original words. I don't know what to think...

Too Busy

Why is Emm always so busy? I understand that she has a lot on her plate at the moment. That much is obvious. But I mean, just to meet up and say "hi" or anything like that. Why is this so difficult? She is able to make time for those other friends of hers. What does she thinkg of me? We had a bit of an argument as she said "don't push it." What does that mean? That she's threatening to walk away from a 3-year friendship because I honestly feel that we're not as close as I had hoped? This is so confusing!

Back to the Gym

I can't believe myself. I was somehow convinced to get a membership at Extreme Fitness. It costs so much money, but I feel that I have gotten so out of shape in recent months. I have to regain the shape I had from a few years back so I can feel good about myself. Luna has a member ship here too so maybe we'll end up working out together or something!

Saddened

I still feel bummed about the whole "visions" thing. Why do I still have them? Why do I feel like I'm going to leave this world soon? I feel like I'll just be forgotten by everyone. Maybe that's how it should be. Sometimes when like this, you feel like no one is really close with you as you had originally thought and hoped.

Pictures

I've only realized that I don't have too many pictures with my friends. I have lots with the Mans on Board of course, but other than that: nothing. None with Emm, none with Luna, none with Irina, and others. That's no good. I mean, what will I use for memories? A picture's worth so much.

I asked them for pictures and they all agreed somewhat. But I wonder when I'll be able to get them. I mean, what if I don't have much time left? I still feel that my time is almost up. If I don't get these pictures, I fear that I'll have to carry regrets with me.